Toxic Hate
OKay,
let's try embedding videos now.
Here was a clip of me and my babes dancing to TOXIC and I hate Myself For Loving You for a function, more than a year ago.
I bet you can't spot me.
This blog was started once upon a time when a young girl at school didnt know better but thought otherwise. So the way earlier entries can be crass and words inappropriate so please don't judge. As now the person has evolved into someone older and wiser (hopefully) ..:.... But some of the entries were classic and hilarious so I don't have the heart to delete them :@ Well we were all young (read:wild) once, right?
OKay,
I was brought up on this issue recently.
Mom was on phone with Wit and Win, my lovely brothers who are in Jakarta last night.
Guilty!
The above title is actually a novel I started writing years back, when I was still a naive young woman with big, ambitious, sometimes ridiculous dreams. I still am the latter actually.
I was browsing through the photo albums that my mom brought from Jakarta recently.
Bleah =)
Shirley's the bartender there and a dear friend. Tonight she's gonna be punished, I am sure. Plus, I haven't seen Jason for ages. I miss him.
The moment I stepped into Riverine ( definitely quite drunk already), this chubby girl stepped on my toes, derm pain siah...I looked up and she apologised nicely.
I thought, what a funny looking girl. Tallish, meatyish, sheepish, not ugly.. but not gorgeous either. She dressed up very corporate like, pretty decent looking overall lah.
Next to her, stood Captain Scary. I did expect to bump into him. But it still surprised me a little to see him there, looking very all too familiar.
Straight away, I had a gut feeling. A bad one.
This girl and him.
As the night went on, the picture became clearer. Oh yes, I know. I am over him. But seeing them canoodling in front of me, still made me want to fyucking slap his face leh.
Why ah??
When he saw me, he quickly smiled, came over and kissed my cheeks, I don't know if this is an acceptable practice. Is it?? Your fyucking girlfriend is there leh.. That chubby girl must have felt something too. You know how girls have super senstive sense. She looked my way a few times, with unreadable expression, but we weren't introduced.
I was bitching to Jason (GUILTY!!): " Eh.. his new girlfrien ah? Why so ugly leh? Why so fat?"
I know I was mean, I was drunk and I was a bit angry for some reasons I couldnt comprehend.
Jason scolded me back :" Dont be so offensive lah, dont be so fyucking stupid lah Marcelly!!!!"
Heuehuehue..
Damnit. Kanna scolded oredi.
I really didn't want to be the bitchy ex-girlfriend, plus Captain Scary is a chapter I was supposed to close very long ago. He was the worst possible candidate ever. He was the boyfriend from Hell. Not joking. He has given me hell and I really don't know how I stayed so stupid for so long. Love is blind. In every sense of it.
I hate bitchy ex-girlfriends and last night, I hated myself a little.
In my mind, I was like "That bastard, they won't last long. He's such a downright asshole.. Urghh.. Disgusting.. I wonder how many other girlfriends he has out there... bastard.. How dare he flirted with me just weeks back.. and now... "
blah blah.. blah..Bitchy - potty mouthed me. I should wish them 'happy ever after'.. actually no, I hope she moves on soon and finds someone better.
Little did she know that when I asked Captain: "Eh... your new girlfriend ah?"
He has rolled his eyes and said reluctantly:"Uh".
Also, did she notice that his wandering eyes still looked my way one too many times that night? I just had to look out from the corner of my eyes, I know he was looking at me at some points.
That grotesque demon.
I still sound super bitter huh? This is bad. Cause I definitely threw Captain Scary into the rubbish dump liao..
Now I like men with authoritative uniforms... and preferably with handcuffs ready. Heuhe...
Anyway, it was really nice to catch up with Jason, he was hilarious as usual, mixing up his "l"s and"r"s...
I was teasing him :" The angmoh says my eyes are brue leh.. don't you fink it's brack or blown?? BRUE EYESS MEHH?? wahh.. like tlaffic righttt.."
Heuheuhe.. Aiyah.. Jason.. if only he's not married. Hahaha..
Before the new disgusting (beg your pardon) couple left River, Captain (I should degrade him to Corporal), so, Corporal Scary came over and gave me more cheek kisses, leaving his chubby girl's eyes to expand with bewilderment. But she seemed damn cool about everything. I gave her that much credit. By the way, She shrieks like a constipated Hyena (her voice damn shrieky and annoying) and puts "fucking" in her every sentence, she also smoke 10 times more than me, and yes much much fatter. However, she seems like a nice girl and she seems so super smitten with him...constantly smiling at him, looking up to him with lovelorn eyes.. rubbing his elbow.. making my hair stands.... And I think she's rich, I noticed her LV bag and Zara suit, ah.. at least rich enough to satiate his drinking habits. Good for him lah. I don't know if it's a fair trade for her. Poor girl. I know what it's like to be out with that scary man. He's a piz of shitz. Piz of shit that I used to love. Broody Heoww..
SHITZ LAHHHH I DONT WANT THIS ENTRY TO SOUND SO SAD AND BITCHY!!!
Here's : HASTALAVISTA Corporal Scary!....!!! Don't let the door slam your butt, on your way out eh!!!
Bah.
Okay okay.. dont care liao.. I am gonna make some trouble in the neighbourhood so that cute policemen can come and arrest me....
"Officer... would you... would you... handcuff me down please...?" *cheeky grin*
Jia Rat Big Time.
I don't know if it's got to do with Korean-Japanese guy craze (i.e Hyun bin, Takeshi), or has the silliest-kawai-wannabe streak in me just surfaced.
But now I want to be KAWAI girl.
See ah, maybe that way, some Korean drama producer can spot me and ask me to star opposite Hyun Bin in his next drama hiak hiak!!!!!!!
*SIGH*
IDIOT
What a stupid girl right?
BUT I DONT CARE LIAO!!!
I took lots of Kawaii photoes already! I just took it today - 1 Sep- 11am! ... And I am gonna whore it!!! NOW!
He he he.. I actually high-lighted my hair myself. How? Can be a hair dresser anot?
I blowdried it straight, with Japanese Kawaii bangs.
Eh! Ah shit, I feel very silly actually,acting Kawaii and all this shit, almost want to puke, but you know, it's kinda nice to be a Kawaii girl for once. If your teeth are aching as you see it, I beg your pardon. Oki? So, since it's all Kawai pics, and Kawaii shits.. so I must write Kawaii Kawaii style right?
Iz it liKe DiZz? =P (HeE HeEe..^_^)
ArH cAN yU seE mI poZzing pozZInG? Totemo kawaii ne? 6_ô
WaHhh.. yU SeE?? Yu SeE??? DeRm CuTezzz RitE??
ErMzzz.. SeE Mi PoUtY PouTY..
MuaCkzZZZ...
T.T ...
Aiyoh... Mi MuZ AdMitZ.. A BIttzz liKeZz A ChIOoo NIPpoN aH LiAn ahRz??
Ummmppph.... This one not Kawai liao..
Wah I tell you it's damn tiring to write lidat (LiKe DiZzz) , is there a normal procedure ah?
Like one finger is constantly on shift button. Press and press sporadically, is it?
Or got special program to write annoyingly like that?
Farg.. heuheu.. heck lah.
I must admit. Sometimes, Kawaii is like daammm far away from me leh. That last one is like a total chao ah lian trying to act cool leh! Grr..
But other times, ehh... I am like quite sophisticated.
Orh.. No meh???? NO MEHHH???????
*put gun on your head*.. NO MEHHH???
Hehehe..
Maybe more cool than kawaii.. more cool than cute.. heh?
huehuehue...
But sure got a bit of KIREI (pweety). No?
At least a bit lahh...!!
Aiyohh... cheeky Japanese Ahlian!!!
Shit... heuheuheuhue.. bordering on disgusting..
And I am a bit more profound than just kawaii.. coz this photo is so nicely taken..
I think.
Hehe..
Hehe.. See froggy and me over the rainbow..
"" the mostest totemoest kireiest kawaiiestt photoest""...
Wah the hair like so nicely styled oso!!.. *-*
Eh heh heh.. What a vainpot me. AH! I DONT CARE!
Sometimes, taking lotsa photoes after dolling up boost my confidence again.
I feel good when I look good.
So, I am what I feel.
And today, I feel so good.
=)
The rest can go fly kite!!!